So how about the days that goes by?
Huh i hate to say it
But i want to say it
I wanna share my story
For you, that wherever you are
I hope you know that i write it for you
I don't know why it's still you
But what you must know, i've done loving you
You know, i never thought that life would be this hard
You know, it's like eugh, so hard to explain
I feel like life just goes by as time changes
And you know? It's killing me slowly, why must like this?
I have no idea to say it with you
But i don't know with whom i gonna say it
I'm tired really, tired
Why people can't understand each other?
Why people can't reading my mind?
Why people are so selfish?
Why people..
Whyy?!!!
Sometimes i hate myself that too overthinking of something that i shouldn't think
Exactly i won't to think about all that stupid random thing, but that all just play in my mind and make me always trying to find a way to solve it eventhough i know it's hard and i shouldn't to think that but, ergggghhh i can't explain it so clearly
Sometimes when i get mad, there are no people will try to be nice to me
But they instead ignore me and also make my madness until its top
And sometimes they can't understand me the way i understand them
And sometimes, u know, being ignored when you actually wanna to cry, is obviously a really awkward moment and it's hurting me more and more
You know? I always happy all the day, but im crying myself when i go to bed
No one know who i really am
No one want to know
Because they always thinking that im still who im no matter hard this life i've been through
No matter big all my problem
No matter sucks the pain that live in my deepest heart
No matter annoying this damn prediction in my mind
No matter...
No matter what, they will not understand
Please God
Take this pain goes away
Make my life full of colour
I want get what i want
Maybe too impossible
Maybe too selfish
But that the fact
I really want get what i want
I really want what i've planned will come true
I really want the people who in my life want to follow what i managed
Too arrogant to ask that to You
But i know there are nothing impossible right?
And i know
Maybe not know
But someday
I believe i will get it, InsyaAllah...
I think it's enough
Thanks for reading
I don't know who want to read this random stupid blog
But if you want, thankyou before and after.
Rabu, 16 April 2014
Senin, 17 Maret 2014
lost that hope
Memori tentangnya telah rusak
Kenangannya telah hilang
Sosoknya telah tergantikan
Sirna segala hal tentangnya
I thought there is no one know what i feel
I thought that just me in this deep pain
But that's all wrong
When i met him
Selengkung senyum tipis
Mempertegas raut kesedihan yang coba disembunyikannya
Menyamarkan keadaan yang berantakan
Membuatku sadar, aku tak sendirian
I was trying to talk with him
Trying to get closer with 'myself in different soul'
Trying to say you'll be happy
Trying to know what people see in me
Mengulurkan tangan
Mencoba mengenali satu sama lain
Memahami isi yang sama hancurnya
Sebentuk cover yang memperindahnya
"Hei" said that cute boy, with a big smile
I know that smile just a cover
"I know there is a trouble in us" said that boy
"Let's got a game, now you can see yourself in me, you can see how broken you really are, 'cause we're like reflection each other" i said that
"Aku gak pernah tau kenapa bisa separah ini rasanya" katanya
"Aku gak pernah mengira bahwa hancur itu adalah rasa yang paling sakit" kataku
"Kehilangan itu..." Kalimat itu baru saja diucapkan bersamaan
Kami tertawa kecil, saling menertawakan yang sama sama terluka
Lost, one word that be the reason behind this pain
I just lost my really bestfriend, no, he is not my bestfriend
I just lost the boy that i love
And that boy just lost his parents
"Kamu gak tau rasanya hidup sendirian" katanya
"Dan kamu gak tau rasanya kehilangan tanpa bisa mengucapkan selamat tinggal" kataku
"Kamu masih jauh lebih bahagia dariku" katanya
"Tapi setidaknya, kamu dan orang tuamu pernah sedekat hati dan jantung, sedangkan aku?" Kataku
"Why? Why you was loving him although you guys wasn't closer?" Said him
"Yep, just because i love him, doesn't mean i must so close with him right? Just because i love him, doesn't mean we must together right? Sometimes, reality are hurt and hard, but we must accept that, because we live in that" i said that
"But you don't know, how deep pain i feel. It's not about you love someone than you don't care have them or not. It's about, two people a.k.a my parents that i love so much, without gave some signs, then leave me alone. They got accident, now i lost everything" said him
"So what we would do for future?" I give him my really big smile, with eyes that stare at him for a long time
"Bergerak maju, apapun yang terjadi, waktu akan membawa kita kepada hal hal baru. Suka atau tidak, mau atau tidak, waktu akan tetap membawa kita kepada hal yang harus kita hadapi" katanya
"Aku tak pernah melihat diriku didalam orang lain" kataku
"Begitupun aku, aku tak pernah mengira ada orang yang juga serapuh aku" katanya
"Haruskah kita berbagi kesedihan untuk menghadapi masa depan?" Kataku
"No, we don't have to share this pain too much. We can see ourself in each other. And the point is, we get it right? If you've get it, now let's start. Let's move from this pain" said him
"I know the reason!" Said me
"What is that?" Said him
"If we still living on this pain, this pain will always attack us like we have no choice to get our future. To build the best future, we need happiness in it to make a rainbow, to make the sun lighting so bright, to make the rain feel so soft we it touch our skin, that's? Enough?" Said me
"Ya kamu tau jawabannya, sekarang mari bangkitlah dari kesedihan berkepanjangan" katanya
"Kita sudah melihat diri kita satu sama lain" kataku
"Dan bukankah terlihat hancur itu sangat menyedihkan? Jika kita terus begini..." Katanya
"Berapa banyak lagi orang yang akan mengasihani diri kita?" Kataku seraya tertawa
Than, he rise my hand on his hand
"It's the time. You'll be my really bestfriend and so i am, don't afraid, i wouldn't leaved you away, except God call me" said him
"You just make me down, and won't believing on someone anymore. But now i believe you. Yep, i will do the same. I will always beside you" said me
"We will make a new world, no worries, no scares, no sadness anymore. Live is a fantasy, then love make it beautiful to living in it"
Dan pada akhirnya, aku yang mengira hanya aku yang merasakan kehancuran
Aku yang mengira aku takkan pernah melihat matahari bangkit di dalam diriku
Aku yang tak bisa lagi mempercayai orang lain
Ternyata itu dipatahkan oleh lelaki manis ini
We're spending our life with living in a beautiful world that we've made together
With happiness, with smile, with love
We give love to each other
Because we know, life without love like earth without sun--dark
Inilah ceritaku dan lelaki itu
Sepenggal kisah yang tak pernah diprediksi
Tuhan mengirimkan seorang yang bernasib sama sepertiku--kehilangan
Untuk membantu kami saling melukiskan senyum pada masing masing hati.
--The End--
This story just a fiction, not reality, thanks.
Kenangannya telah hilang
Sosoknya telah tergantikan
Sirna segala hal tentangnya
I thought there is no one know what i feel
I thought that just me in this deep pain
But that's all wrong
When i met him
Selengkung senyum tipis
Mempertegas raut kesedihan yang coba disembunyikannya
Menyamarkan keadaan yang berantakan
Membuatku sadar, aku tak sendirian
I was trying to talk with him
Trying to get closer with 'myself in different soul'
Trying to say you'll be happy
Trying to know what people see in me
Mengulurkan tangan
Mencoba mengenali satu sama lain
Memahami isi yang sama hancurnya
Sebentuk cover yang memperindahnya
"Hei" said that cute boy, with a big smile
I know that smile just a cover
"I know there is a trouble in us" said that boy
"Let's got a game, now you can see yourself in me, you can see how broken you really are, 'cause we're like reflection each other" i said that
"Aku gak pernah tau kenapa bisa separah ini rasanya" katanya
"Aku gak pernah mengira bahwa hancur itu adalah rasa yang paling sakit" kataku
"Kehilangan itu..." Kalimat itu baru saja diucapkan bersamaan
Kami tertawa kecil, saling menertawakan yang sama sama terluka
Lost, one word that be the reason behind this pain
I just lost my really bestfriend, no, he is not my bestfriend
I just lost the boy that i love
And that boy just lost his parents
"Kamu gak tau rasanya hidup sendirian" katanya
"Dan kamu gak tau rasanya kehilangan tanpa bisa mengucapkan selamat tinggal" kataku
"Kamu masih jauh lebih bahagia dariku" katanya
"Tapi setidaknya, kamu dan orang tuamu pernah sedekat hati dan jantung, sedangkan aku?" Kataku
"Why? Why you was loving him although you guys wasn't closer?" Said him
"Yep, just because i love him, doesn't mean i must so close with him right? Just because i love him, doesn't mean we must together right? Sometimes, reality are hurt and hard, but we must accept that, because we live in that" i said that
"But you don't know, how deep pain i feel. It's not about you love someone than you don't care have them or not. It's about, two people a.k.a my parents that i love so much, without gave some signs, then leave me alone. They got accident, now i lost everything" said him
"So what we would do for future?" I give him my really big smile, with eyes that stare at him for a long time
"Bergerak maju, apapun yang terjadi, waktu akan membawa kita kepada hal hal baru. Suka atau tidak, mau atau tidak, waktu akan tetap membawa kita kepada hal yang harus kita hadapi" katanya
"Aku tak pernah melihat diriku didalam orang lain" kataku
"Begitupun aku, aku tak pernah mengira ada orang yang juga serapuh aku" katanya
"Haruskah kita berbagi kesedihan untuk menghadapi masa depan?" Kataku
"No, we don't have to share this pain too much. We can see ourself in each other. And the point is, we get it right? If you've get it, now let's start. Let's move from this pain" said him
"I know the reason!" Said me
"What is that?" Said him
"If we still living on this pain, this pain will always attack us like we have no choice to get our future. To build the best future, we need happiness in it to make a rainbow, to make the sun lighting so bright, to make the rain feel so soft we it touch our skin, that's? Enough?" Said me
"Ya kamu tau jawabannya, sekarang mari bangkitlah dari kesedihan berkepanjangan" katanya
"Kita sudah melihat diri kita satu sama lain" kataku
"Dan bukankah terlihat hancur itu sangat menyedihkan? Jika kita terus begini..." Katanya
"Berapa banyak lagi orang yang akan mengasihani diri kita?" Kataku seraya tertawa
Than, he rise my hand on his hand
"It's the time. You'll be my really bestfriend and so i am, don't afraid, i wouldn't leaved you away, except God call me" said him
"You just make me down, and won't believing on someone anymore. But now i believe you. Yep, i will do the same. I will always beside you" said me
"We will make a new world, no worries, no scares, no sadness anymore. Live is a fantasy, then love make it beautiful to living in it"
Dan pada akhirnya, aku yang mengira hanya aku yang merasakan kehancuran
Aku yang mengira aku takkan pernah melihat matahari bangkit di dalam diriku
Aku yang tak bisa lagi mempercayai orang lain
Ternyata itu dipatahkan oleh lelaki manis ini
We're spending our life with living in a beautiful world that we've made together
With happiness, with smile, with love
We give love to each other
Because we know, life without love like earth without sun--dark
Inilah ceritaku dan lelaki itu
Sepenggal kisah yang tak pernah diprediksi
Tuhan mengirimkan seorang yang bernasib sama sepertiku--kehilangan
Untuk membantu kami saling melukiskan senyum pada masing masing hati.
--The End--
This story just a fiction, not reality, thanks.
Senin, 10 Maret 2014
setahun, dua tahun, udah move on belum?!
"Move on? Apaan tuh?" Pernyataan dari sebagian orang yang malu untuk mengakui bahwa dia belum move on.
"Ah udah move on kok. UDAH KOK" ketahuilah bahwa pernyataan barusan nyatanya sangat tidak bisa move on.
"Udah gak usah dibahas, males tau dengar dia terus dia terus" dan pernyataan inilah yang telah mendekati sukses move on.
Jadi berhati hatilah dengan setiap perkataan kalian.
Okay, kali ini aku gak tau mau bahas apa. Tapi aku mau nyoba tentang masalah "move on" eventhough i dunno what is move on generally. It's usual used by people to explain, are they have forgotten their ex or yet? Ya something like that lah. I can't explain too much, 'cause i dont even know what the truly deeply mean of move on.
Kita bawa satu contoh deh. Contohnya ya aku sendiri, soalnya takut pakai cerita orang lain, ntar salah salah malah masalah. Haha. Eh gak deng, kita pakai cerita si Gea aja ya.
Jadi gini, Gea ini dulu naksir nih sama cowok, temen dia waktu smp. Namanya Fahri. Nah si Gea ni kan agak gimana ya anaknya, yagitu deh. Dia lasak banget. Sedangkan si Fahri ini kalem, pendiam, gitu. Singkat cerita si Gea ngebettttt banget sama si Fahri. Tiap si Fahri lewat depan kelasnya, dia melting sendiri tu, aneh aneh ajadeh pokoknya tingkah dia.
As times goes, bring them to the hardest moment that never Gea thought that it'll happen. Actually, Gea knew, she will lost her prince, now or later, it will happen. But, times flies so fast and bring her to this moment.
Hari itu, hari yang gak pernah kebayang sama Gea. Okay terlalu mendramatisir ya. Ya pokoknya gitu deh. Hari itu pengumuman lulus nih kan. Gea ni nyari nyari Fahri tapi gak ketemu. Bukan buat nyapa juga sih. Tapi CUMAN buat ngeliat dia aja, soalnya selama libur panjang tuh ya si Gea pergi liburan. Nah udahkan sekejap mata gitu ngeliatnya, terus dia kesenengan karna lulus tuh, jadinya bodo amat sama si Fahri.
Dia ngira itu bakalan hari terakhir dia ketemu Fahri. Dia ngerasa flat. Dia ngira dia udah move on. Dia kira dia udah bebas dari belenggu Fahri. Tapi sebenernya dia takut Fahri pergi. Dia takut. Tapi ketakutan dia tu emang gak ada haknya, secara Fahri wasn't loving her back, how poor she is. Hari itu, hari nilai keluar. Dan dia ketemu Fahri lagi. Suasananya beda. Dia ngerasa flat flat aja. Dia ngerasa ya biasa aja. Kayak dia udah rela gitu ngelepas Fahri.
Akhirnya Fahri pun pergi, kalau gak salah gak ada kata kata perpisahan gitu deh diantara mereka, gak jelas gitu. Pokoknya si Gea ni tau kapan Fahri bakalan pergi ke kota tempat dia bakalan sekolah disana, tapi dia nggak ada ngecontact si Fahri. Alesannya takut di 'flat'in, takut ngeganggu, dll. Akhirnya mereka masing masing hidup masing masing di jalan masing masing.
Gea masih sering kepikiran Fahri. Tapi waktu emang dewa dari segala masalah. Waktu bisa bikin kita ngedapetin hal yang bikin kita lupa dengan kesedihan kita dan bisa juga ngebawa hal yang membuat kita kembali mengenang kesedihan kita dulu. Ni ya, si Gea tuh sekarang baru masuk SMA dah tugasnya seabrek! Ulangannya numpuk. Sampai sampai dia lupa tuh sama si Fahri. Tapi di sela sela kesibukannya, kalau dia sendiri, dia keinget lagi sama Fahri. Dia kangen. Dia melow. She've thought to herself that she has moved on. But in reality she hasn't. Than she thought to others that she have moved but on yet. But the reality she never do that. Okay, she've tried her best. But it's not works better.
Everyday is a new day. Yep, Gea udah sibuk sama dunianya. Gak pernah terlintas di fikirannya Fahri. Kecuali kalau dia lagi sendirian. Kecuali kalau kotak pensilnya terbuka dan dia ngeliat pemberian yang dikasi Fahri lewat temennya. Nah itu aja dititip, sedih banget ya Gea. Padahal one step closer tuh bisa ketemu sama Fahri, tapi gagal deh. Haha. Kecuali satu benda itu yang selalu dibawanya. Entah kenapa setiap ngeliat itu Gea selalu senyum, terus merinding sendiri.
Dunia dia udah gak sama kayak Fahri. Gea sekarang udah bahagia. Temen temen barunya juga baik baik. Apalagi ada satu tuuh temen cowoknya yang deket sama dia, mereka hobi banget berantem. Tapi ya lagi lagi waktu bring happiness and sadness in one of them.
Suatu hari, datanglah si Fahri yang sedang berlibur ini ke kota dimana mereka bertemu. Datanglah di Fahri ini ke sekolah si Gea. Oke, selama Fahri liburan, mereka emang ada komunikasi gitu, ya tapi sekedar gitu gitu ajasih. Si Gea sih seneng, tapi dia harus ngeyakinin dirinya sendiri kalau dia emang gak depend and expect on Fahri anymore.
And datanglah satu hari itu. Ketika Fahri datang ke sekolah Gea and Gea wasn't meeting him, ahaha lucu ya? Gak ah biasa aja. Sedih banget tau gak?!!!!!!!! Selalu one step closer tapi gak jadi jadi, kasian banget Gea.
Dan asal kalian tau Gea itu aku, yep this is my story. I have no idea why i still share all story about who-i-love-at-past. Karna emang lucu banget kenyataan yg terjadi.
Hari ini, waktu ini, kenapa aku ngeshare cerita ini. Karna aku tiba tiba teringat dia. Yang so faarrrrrrrrrrrrr. Aku baru aja mau to-do-something yang berkaitan sama dia, tapi aku ngurungin niat itu, then asking to myself, have i move one yet? Haha, makanya kepingin bikin postingan ginia. Sorry deh kalau ceritanya rancu, wuahaha, soalnya random banget nih. Cuman lagi pengen nulis aja, berhubung libur haha.
Ohya, aku teringat dia karna satu quotes ni: "life is about letting go. But the hardest part when, there is no chance to say goodbye"-Life of Pi- tau gak film itu? Tuh film sedih banget tau gak. Udah mengarungi laut dengan seekor harimau, tapi setelah harimau itu nemuin jalan pulang ke hutan, dia sama sekali gak ngeliat Pi, jadi Pi gak punya kesempatan buat say goodbye. Sakit gak tuh ditinggal gitu aja tanpa ada kesempatan? That's what i felt. Haha. Yaudah deh, pokoknya move on itu emang gak mudah. Selama ini sih ngaku2 doang udah move on, tapi nyatanya; "denger dia lagi pulang ke pekanbaru aja loncat loncat":)) "chat di bales aja senengnya masih kayak pertama kali chat":)) "ngebaca dia masih inget mantan dia aja, keselnya kayak yang pacar dia aja":)) "berantem sama temen cowok, bandingin sama dia, ya jelaslah samaa dia gak pernah berantem, dekat aja enggak":))
Ohya satu lagi, aku mau bilang sesuatu; "jangan ngaku ngaku move on, kalau di chat 'hai' aja rasanya masih kayak first sight aja":)) wkwk sorry for awkward quotes-_- tapi sebenernya, semua itu niat ajasih. Mau dia nembak, mau dia yang malah suka kita, kalau emang udah niat mau move on dan ngelupain, insyaAllah sukses kok! Goodluck guys!
"Ah udah move on kok. UDAH KOK" ketahuilah bahwa pernyataan barusan nyatanya sangat tidak bisa move on.
"Udah gak usah dibahas, males tau dengar dia terus dia terus" dan pernyataan inilah yang telah mendekati sukses move on.
Jadi berhati hatilah dengan setiap perkataan kalian.
Okay, kali ini aku gak tau mau bahas apa. Tapi aku mau nyoba tentang masalah "move on" eventhough i dunno what is move on generally. It's usual used by people to explain, are they have forgotten their ex or yet? Ya something like that lah. I can't explain too much, 'cause i dont even know what the truly deeply mean of move on.
Kita bawa satu contoh deh. Contohnya ya aku sendiri, soalnya takut pakai cerita orang lain, ntar salah salah malah masalah. Haha. Eh gak deng, kita pakai cerita si Gea aja ya.
Jadi gini, Gea ini dulu naksir nih sama cowok, temen dia waktu smp. Namanya Fahri. Nah si Gea ni kan agak gimana ya anaknya, yagitu deh. Dia lasak banget. Sedangkan si Fahri ini kalem, pendiam, gitu. Singkat cerita si Gea ngebettttt banget sama si Fahri. Tiap si Fahri lewat depan kelasnya, dia melting sendiri tu, aneh aneh ajadeh pokoknya tingkah dia.
As times goes, bring them to the hardest moment that never Gea thought that it'll happen. Actually, Gea knew, she will lost her prince, now or later, it will happen. But, times flies so fast and bring her to this moment.
Hari itu, hari yang gak pernah kebayang sama Gea. Okay terlalu mendramatisir ya. Ya pokoknya gitu deh. Hari itu pengumuman lulus nih kan. Gea ni nyari nyari Fahri tapi gak ketemu. Bukan buat nyapa juga sih. Tapi CUMAN buat ngeliat dia aja, soalnya selama libur panjang tuh ya si Gea pergi liburan. Nah udahkan sekejap mata gitu ngeliatnya, terus dia kesenengan karna lulus tuh, jadinya bodo amat sama si Fahri.
Dia ngira itu bakalan hari terakhir dia ketemu Fahri. Dia ngerasa flat. Dia ngira dia udah move on. Dia kira dia udah bebas dari belenggu Fahri. Tapi sebenernya dia takut Fahri pergi. Dia takut. Tapi ketakutan dia tu emang gak ada haknya, secara Fahri wasn't loving her back, how poor she is. Hari itu, hari nilai keluar. Dan dia ketemu Fahri lagi. Suasananya beda. Dia ngerasa flat flat aja. Dia ngerasa ya biasa aja. Kayak dia udah rela gitu ngelepas Fahri.
Akhirnya Fahri pun pergi, kalau gak salah gak ada kata kata perpisahan gitu deh diantara mereka, gak jelas gitu. Pokoknya si Gea ni tau kapan Fahri bakalan pergi ke kota tempat dia bakalan sekolah disana, tapi dia nggak ada ngecontact si Fahri. Alesannya takut di 'flat'in, takut ngeganggu, dll. Akhirnya mereka masing masing hidup masing masing di jalan masing masing.
Gea masih sering kepikiran Fahri. Tapi waktu emang dewa dari segala masalah. Waktu bisa bikin kita ngedapetin hal yang bikin kita lupa dengan kesedihan kita dan bisa juga ngebawa hal yang membuat kita kembali mengenang kesedihan kita dulu. Ni ya, si Gea tuh sekarang baru masuk SMA dah tugasnya seabrek! Ulangannya numpuk. Sampai sampai dia lupa tuh sama si Fahri. Tapi di sela sela kesibukannya, kalau dia sendiri, dia keinget lagi sama Fahri. Dia kangen. Dia melow. She've thought to herself that she has moved on. But in reality she hasn't. Than she thought to others that she have moved but on yet. But the reality she never do that. Okay, she've tried her best. But it's not works better.
Everyday is a new day. Yep, Gea udah sibuk sama dunianya. Gak pernah terlintas di fikirannya Fahri. Kecuali kalau dia lagi sendirian. Kecuali kalau kotak pensilnya terbuka dan dia ngeliat pemberian yang dikasi Fahri lewat temennya. Nah itu aja dititip, sedih banget ya Gea. Padahal one step closer tuh bisa ketemu sama Fahri, tapi gagal deh. Haha. Kecuali satu benda itu yang selalu dibawanya. Entah kenapa setiap ngeliat itu Gea selalu senyum, terus merinding sendiri.
Dunia dia udah gak sama kayak Fahri. Gea sekarang udah bahagia. Temen temen barunya juga baik baik. Apalagi ada satu tuuh temen cowoknya yang deket sama dia, mereka hobi banget berantem. Tapi ya lagi lagi waktu bring happiness and sadness in one of them.
Suatu hari, datanglah si Fahri yang sedang berlibur ini ke kota dimana mereka bertemu. Datanglah di Fahri ini ke sekolah si Gea. Oke, selama Fahri liburan, mereka emang ada komunikasi gitu, ya tapi sekedar gitu gitu ajasih. Si Gea sih seneng, tapi dia harus ngeyakinin dirinya sendiri kalau dia emang gak depend and expect on Fahri anymore.
And datanglah satu hari itu. Ketika Fahri datang ke sekolah Gea and Gea wasn't meeting him, ahaha lucu ya? Gak ah biasa aja. Sedih banget tau gak?!!!!!!!! Selalu one step closer tapi gak jadi jadi, kasian banget Gea.
Dan asal kalian tau Gea itu aku, yep this is my story. I have no idea why i still share all story about who-i-love-at-past. Karna emang lucu banget kenyataan yg terjadi.
Hari ini, waktu ini, kenapa aku ngeshare cerita ini. Karna aku tiba tiba teringat dia. Yang so faarrrrrrrrrrrrr. Aku baru aja mau to-do-something yang berkaitan sama dia, tapi aku ngurungin niat itu, then asking to myself, have i move one yet? Haha, makanya kepingin bikin postingan ginia. Sorry deh kalau ceritanya rancu, wuahaha, soalnya random banget nih. Cuman lagi pengen nulis aja, berhubung libur haha.
Ohya, aku teringat dia karna satu quotes ni: "life is about letting go. But the hardest part when, there is no chance to say goodbye"-Life of Pi- tau gak film itu? Tuh film sedih banget tau gak. Udah mengarungi laut dengan seekor harimau, tapi setelah harimau itu nemuin jalan pulang ke hutan, dia sama sekali gak ngeliat Pi, jadi Pi gak punya kesempatan buat say goodbye. Sakit gak tuh ditinggal gitu aja tanpa ada kesempatan? That's what i felt. Haha. Yaudah deh, pokoknya move on itu emang gak mudah. Selama ini sih ngaku2 doang udah move on, tapi nyatanya; "denger dia lagi pulang ke pekanbaru aja loncat loncat":)) "chat di bales aja senengnya masih kayak pertama kali chat":)) "ngebaca dia masih inget mantan dia aja, keselnya kayak yang pacar dia aja":)) "berantem sama temen cowok, bandingin sama dia, ya jelaslah samaa dia gak pernah berantem, dekat aja enggak":))
Ohya satu lagi, aku mau bilang sesuatu; "jangan ngaku ngaku move on, kalau di chat 'hai' aja rasanya masih kayak first sight aja":)) wkwk sorry for awkward quotes-_- tapi sebenernya, semua itu niat ajasih. Mau dia nembak, mau dia yang malah suka kita, kalau emang udah niat mau move on dan ngelupain, insyaAllah sukses kok! Goodluck guys!
Kamis, 27 Februari 2014
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Hellow! Sekarang aku udah sma nii, mungkin selama ini isi postingan blog aku cuman about friendzone, missing someone and something like that. Sampai kalian gak pernah tau my real life. Okay, i'll share about that.
Fyi, sekarang aku sekolah di SMAN 1 Pekanbaru, kelas XA3. Kelasnya gila! Gila banget! Isinya 34 manusia freak, weird, and crazy! Serius, kalian bakalan letih kalau nyoba untuk stay beberapa saat disini. Karena emang beneran seram!!! But i love them so damn much! Walaupun aku gak anak asli XA3, karna sebelumnya aku di X6, tapi setelah bagi jurusan i got this crazy class!
Awalnya ya tuh aku kira "ini garing banget" awalnya tu waktu di X6, aku kalem, diem. Dan aku ngebatin "yes, it's time to change!" Karna aku emang niat tuh mau berubah di sma ni, pengen kalem gitu, pengen feminim like girl used to be. Rasanya agak success lah waktu di X6. But, did u know? Jangka waktu seminggu aku XA3, dahlah, dah muncul aja sifat asli aku tu. Dahlah, batal semua rencana. Dan emang gak enak try to be someone that i'm not. It's so hard mennn. Wkwkwk.
Okay aku bakalan describe anak anak XA3 satu satu. Oiya, setiap guru yang masuk ke kelas ini pasti ngeluh! Ngeluh karna kami ribut, mada, gak merhatiin, dll. Terus disini tu ya, kayak gak ada perbedaan gender, semua sama:)) walaupun kayak gini, tapi aku betah, aku nyaman, seru banget soalnya bisa ada diantara yang gila gila kayak mereka.
Okay, walikelas kami ngajar fisika, baik, cantik, manis, sering nyeramahin kami, karna "if you know what i mean" yep, kemadaan kami! Oke, aku bakalan describe satu satu:
1. Afra naudzul: bendahara cetarr, suaranya astaghfirullah, hobi marah, hobi berkata kata:), afra seram kalau udah minta duit, tapi dia pinter, apalagi b.ing, jago begetee. Manis, galak25698x, crush kami sekelas, eh gak crush deh, ex-crush kami, skrg ex-crush dia udah jadi pacar dia, dan ex-crush aku yagitu, wkwk. Rumahnya 2 kali dikunjungi segerombolan kami:).
2. Agus reforiandi: marketerzzzzz, sikit sikit bercarut, gendut, hitam, kasar, kasar, kasar, jahat, mpo hehe, garing, pemalas, merasa paling bagak, tukang ngisi spidol. End.
3. Aldian anggi: gabeng, manis, ganteng, baik, ramah, taken, langeng xxxxx! Sepaket sama malik, titan, yani. Dulu asfa, adzannya keren! Giginya lucu, vollynya keren, sering kesel nih sama aku, don't know why:)
4. Asih rahayu: acin, kurus, tinggi, rambutnya badai, hijabers, rumahnya dewa! Kerumah dia sejauh jauhnya buat latihan, alhasil nihil, karna rumahnya ada biliard penghasut anak cowok untuk bermain:) baikkk, manis, lesung pipinya uwuuw, hobi galau, agak sensian, kalau udah berkata kata seram, bestnya gewe nee, walaupun sering kelahi kita ya cin?:*
5. Ayu nastiti: atun, teman sd sekomplek yang bertemu di sma, speechless waktu sekelas sama atun, rasanya bentuk dulu sd kami musuhan, eh skrg ketemu:) tun ndut, imut, baik, empuk xxxxx! Sering dipanjat roby, pacaran 2 hari galaunya 2 tahun, tun seru, asyik, gokil, tun gak suka pramuka, anak basket dan dia sering ditegur guru:(
6. Bella amanda: belli, bele, bokep, lawak, nyengir selalu, pacarnya baik kaliiiii, udah setahun, gigi besar, gusi besar, hobi teriak teriak, gila, gak ada pandainya, bestfriend sinsu 4ever bel? Sepaket sama nabella, anak passus yang rajin.
7. Dandy indrawangsa: pendiam, duduknya didepan sama anak baru.
8. Danny maulana: jahat, kasar sekasar kasarnya umat, sering mukul kepala, punggung aku, putih, pinter, mirip cina, punya dendam sendiri ke aku kayaknya:) kalau ada maunya, minta maaf dulu:) pemeran utama pagelaran, danny mada, anak basket, bibirnya merah, alisnya sexy:)
9. Dayana mareta: badaii, pinterrrr, sepaket sama widya, fitri. Baikkkk, suaranya bagus keleuss, anak olimp mtk, bijak, disegani ni dikelas, anak debat, talk less do more.
10. Fikri shadiq: tampang mupeng, bele, muka lonjong, freak, aneh seaneh anehnya umat, tatapannya bahaya:) rempong hidupnya, ribet, hobi ngebentak, gak banget, tapi dia seru juga, dulu satu smp kami. Setau aku dipanggil fikri, nyampai sma udah shadiq aja panggilannya.
11. Fitri natalia: anak kos, hobi sensi, dia rajin begete, telaten, rambutnya badai, kayak barbie, kecil, suara kecil, kurus.
12. Ilham meidarlis: temen les yang sekarang sekelas, telinganya dahsyat, pemalas luar biasaaaaa, taken sama anak sebelah, tugas minta bikinin sama orang, suaranya keren abis, kalian mesti denger! Anak bagak, sekolah punya bapaknya.
13. Kevin rovi: otaknya normal kok normal, anak mama, apa apa telfon mama, pergi latihan kami barengan, dia diantar mama, mama forever, rapper, otaknya eminem, jago begete b.ingnya.
14. Malik habibillah: pimsang kelas putra, botak, ucul 1000x ucul, sayang kali sama malik, anak dumai, itemm manis dan ngegemesin, tampang?flat! Walaupun marah, ngelawak, tetep flat but funny! Kata katanya nusuk juga nii, sering pedih pedih hati dibikinnya, cowok sejati dikelas, amat sangat bisa diandalkan!
15. M. Ferdiansyah: juara satu neee, sayang muka, sayang perut, semua disayang soalnya jomblo, rajin garis keras, peduli banget sama nilai, tukang makan, pinterrrr, olimp mtk kemarin, stress kalau nilai hancur, stress tugas gak siap, kalau sekelompok sama dia top lah! Temen nebeng pulang<3
16. M. Hafiz: pinterrnya pinter keleesss, rajiin, baikkk, sabarnya tebel banget kalau aku minta ajarin, kadang buat palak, skrg udah otw bikin kesel, otaknya encer kali, nyebelin, hobi ngejek, sebangku agus, haha.
17. M. Akbar: lentik, manis, mirip afgan?nggak deh, tukang gombal, moduser, akbar baik, imut imut, taken, ntah udah berapa bulan, pemalas tapi tugas gak mau gak ngumpul, sebangku sama obie.
18. Nabella oktavianda: cewek paling raksasa setelah atun, suaranyaaa-_- sekarang udah hobi marah dan bikin palak, gak ngertilah sama nabel, tapi nabel baik, pernah nebeng ke sungai siak buat tugas plh, hihi.
19. Nahda rani: bakatnya sih pengacara, cita cinta dokter:) ngomong sekata dijawabnya separagraf, jahat, mukanya bikin palak, aktif passus, sepaket sama nindi, hobi marah marah tapi marah kalau aku marah marah, duduk dibelakang dia gak tersiksa kok, enggak:)
20. Nindi ayu: buklu passus, sexy men, cheers nii, objek dibully anak cowok, klop kali sama robby, apa apa robby, sering menyelipkan curhatan di setiap kalimat yg diomongkannya, nama lainnya sih curcol, sepaket berdua rinda, pipinya merah merah, katanya sih blash on nya dari dalam:)
21. Nindy novianty: anak basket ney, baikk, sabar kali kali kalii, pacarnya senior, rajin, putih, cantik, kurus pengen kayak nindy:( bertanggungjawab, tapi kalau udah palak, dahlah jangan coba coba:)
22. Rendy yuda: aneh, misterius, kadang sih percaya gak percaya sama dia, klop kali sama ryan, selalu ngebelain ryan, sayang kali sama ryan, rumahnya nggak jauh kok enggak, lumayan bisalah diajak bekerja sama dalam pagelaran buat bantu bantu.
23. Rifka malinda: ika kecik, minion, takenn, k so sweet kali sama pacarnya, senyumnya lebar, jarinya panjang, duo kecik sama veren, manissss, hobi marah juga, cepet sensi, tapi ramah begete. Kemarin dia baru pulang umroh, k imutlah pokoknya!
24. Robby fenandri: ada trisukma dinamanya tapi dia gak suka karna kayak nama cewek, badannya kecil dan menipu, kurus, hobby kali nyiksa nindi, ntah sayang dia ntah gak, otaknya siplah:) bele, kadang tingkahnya yg nggak nggak aja, baiklah, penakut akut!! Obie ucul juga, sering membongak.
25. Rosa mulni: hoho, my chairmate! Sabarnya teballlll, tebaaaal kaliii, baiik, pinterrr, tapi skrg udah agak hobi sensi, terkontaminasi aku kali ya?:( rosa always listening always understanding, sabar kali berdua rendy kalau aku udah kelahi sama ryan, rajin bangettt, aktif passus. Sering gibah sama dia sekarang, wkwk.
26. Ryan sury: ketua, buruk, jahat, cerewet, raksasa, tukang ngina, tukang buat palak, teman kelahi all the time, nyebeliiiinnn, gak ada yg bener dimata dia, semua salah, kalau ada maunya baru baik baik, itupun dalam sekejap langsung buat palak, sering minta kirimin pr, pinterlah yaa, uh sering nanya wkwk, vollynya keren men, sombong, sombong, sombong, hobi sombong, sok cool padahal buruk.
27. Sherly perel: itam, legam, besi berani:) gak dehh, sherly best deeeh, baik meen, mukanya buat palak, giginya ucul, makan all the time, pacarnya imam ckck, nyebelin, gak suka dimarah tapi kelakuannya bikin org marah:) dia sabar tapi kadang marah marah juga:)
28. Shindi yuliza: bohay, sexy and pinter banget caper guru, hehe, dia sekre kelas.
29. Titan herliana: kecil, rambut panjang bgt, juru soal, juru kunci, baiklah, pinter, lumayan rajin, anak bagak, selalu berani dengan semua yg dilakukannya gak peduli resiko:)
30. Vanesha miranda: i cant describing myself anyway. Pokoknya dikelas itu ya gitu, kayak kebanyakan makhluk disana pokoknya.
31. Veren monica: mancung, manissss, pipinya tembem, rambut badai keles, kecikk, ndutz, bibirnya tipis keles, cheers ne, so sweet kali sama pacarnya, jarang ada pandainya dia ni.
32. Widya esterina: teman seperjuangan kalauu mau uh, kalau ada tugas ask widya! Baikk, badannya gede, sabar, pinteerrr, olimp mtk juga, duduknya so far from me, tapi kalau ujian deket sama dia, hehe.
33. Zuffiani zetha: ucul, sipit, ngomongnya so fast, gaya ngomongnya lucu, panggilannya 'y' putih keles, sering flu sama kayak aku, baik, ramah, baru jomblo, sering sensi juga, rumah paling dekat sama sekolah tapi hobi telat:)
34. Ridho wira: anak baru dari sma2, pinter volly, kayaknya pinter sih, belum kenal banget, baik deh, mukanya agak sengak gitu, eh rupanya lumayan seru jugalah dia.
Finally!! Keriting jari dedek ngetiknya:( haft! Pokoknya sayang banget sama mereka! Kalau ibaratnya sekolah itu rumah kedua, nah mereka itulah keluarga kedua! Emang seru seru banget! Bakalan banyak event yang bakal kami isi bareng2, kayak ntar lagi bakalan ada ED, pagelaran, siroh, upacara. Huhu, semoga klop terus yaa my lovely class!!!
Fyi, sekarang aku sekolah di SMAN 1 Pekanbaru, kelas XA3. Kelasnya gila! Gila banget! Isinya 34 manusia freak, weird, and crazy! Serius, kalian bakalan letih kalau nyoba untuk stay beberapa saat disini. Karena emang beneran seram!!! But i love them so damn much! Walaupun aku gak anak asli XA3, karna sebelumnya aku di X6, tapi setelah bagi jurusan i got this crazy class!
Awalnya ya tuh aku kira "ini garing banget" awalnya tu waktu di X6, aku kalem, diem. Dan aku ngebatin "yes, it's time to change!" Karna aku emang niat tuh mau berubah di sma ni, pengen kalem gitu, pengen feminim like girl used to be. Rasanya agak success lah waktu di X6. But, did u know? Jangka waktu seminggu aku XA3, dahlah, dah muncul aja sifat asli aku tu. Dahlah, batal semua rencana. Dan emang gak enak try to be someone that i'm not. It's so hard mennn. Wkwkwk.
Okay aku bakalan describe anak anak XA3 satu satu. Oiya, setiap guru yang masuk ke kelas ini pasti ngeluh! Ngeluh karna kami ribut, mada, gak merhatiin, dll. Terus disini tu ya, kayak gak ada perbedaan gender, semua sama:)) walaupun kayak gini, tapi aku betah, aku nyaman, seru banget soalnya bisa ada diantara yang gila gila kayak mereka.
Okay, walikelas kami ngajar fisika, baik, cantik, manis, sering nyeramahin kami, karna "if you know what i mean" yep, kemadaan kami! Oke, aku bakalan describe satu satu:
1. Afra naudzul: bendahara cetarr, suaranya astaghfirullah, hobi marah, hobi berkata kata:), afra seram kalau udah minta duit, tapi dia pinter, apalagi b.ing, jago begetee. Manis, galak25698x, crush kami sekelas, eh gak crush deh, ex-crush kami, skrg ex-crush dia udah jadi pacar dia, dan ex-crush aku yagitu, wkwk. Rumahnya 2 kali dikunjungi segerombolan kami:).
2. Agus reforiandi: marketerzzzzz, sikit sikit bercarut, gendut, hitam, kasar, kasar, kasar, jahat, mpo hehe, garing, pemalas, merasa paling bagak, tukang ngisi spidol. End.
3. Aldian anggi: gabeng, manis, ganteng, baik, ramah, taken, langeng xxxxx! Sepaket sama malik, titan, yani. Dulu asfa, adzannya keren! Giginya lucu, vollynya keren, sering kesel nih sama aku, don't know why:)
4. Asih rahayu: acin, kurus, tinggi, rambutnya badai, hijabers, rumahnya dewa! Kerumah dia sejauh jauhnya buat latihan, alhasil nihil, karna rumahnya ada biliard penghasut anak cowok untuk bermain:) baikkk, manis, lesung pipinya uwuuw, hobi galau, agak sensian, kalau udah berkata kata seram, bestnya gewe nee, walaupun sering kelahi kita ya cin?:*
5. Ayu nastiti: atun, teman sd sekomplek yang bertemu di sma, speechless waktu sekelas sama atun, rasanya bentuk dulu sd kami musuhan, eh skrg ketemu:) tun ndut, imut, baik, empuk xxxxx! Sering dipanjat roby, pacaran 2 hari galaunya 2 tahun, tun seru, asyik, gokil, tun gak suka pramuka, anak basket dan dia sering ditegur guru:(
6. Bella amanda: belli, bele, bokep, lawak, nyengir selalu, pacarnya baik kaliiiii, udah setahun, gigi besar, gusi besar, hobi teriak teriak, gila, gak ada pandainya, bestfriend sinsu 4ever bel? Sepaket sama nabella, anak passus yang rajin.
7. Dandy indrawangsa: pendiam, duduknya didepan sama anak baru.
8. Danny maulana: jahat, kasar sekasar kasarnya umat, sering mukul kepala, punggung aku, putih, pinter, mirip cina, punya dendam sendiri ke aku kayaknya:) kalau ada maunya, minta maaf dulu:) pemeran utama pagelaran, danny mada, anak basket, bibirnya merah, alisnya sexy:)
9. Dayana mareta: badaii, pinterrrr, sepaket sama widya, fitri. Baikkkk, suaranya bagus keleuss, anak olimp mtk, bijak, disegani ni dikelas, anak debat, talk less do more.
10. Fikri shadiq: tampang mupeng, bele, muka lonjong, freak, aneh seaneh anehnya umat, tatapannya bahaya:) rempong hidupnya, ribet, hobi ngebentak, gak banget, tapi dia seru juga, dulu satu smp kami. Setau aku dipanggil fikri, nyampai sma udah shadiq aja panggilannya.
11. Fitri natalia: anak kos, hobi sensi, dia rajin begete, telaten, rambutnya badai, kayak barbie, kecil, suara kecil, kurus.
12. Ilham meidarlis: temen les yang sekarang sekelas, telinganya dahsyat, pemalas luar biasaaaaa, taken sama anak sebelah, tugas minta bikinin sama orang, suaranya keren abis, kalian mesti denger! Anak bagak, sekolah punya bapaknya.
13. Kevin rovi: otaknya normal kok normal, anak mama, apa apa telfon mama, pergi latihan kami barengan, dia diantar mama, mama forever, rapper, otaknya eminem, jago begete b.ingnya.
14. Malik habibillah: pimsang kelas putra, botak, ucul 1000x ucul, sayang kali sama malik, anak dumai, itemm manis dan ngegemesin, tampang?flat! Walaupun marah, ngelawak, tetep flat but funny! Kata katanya nusuk juga nii, sering pedih pedih hati dibikinnya, cowok sejati dikelas, amat sangat bisa diandalkan!
15. M. Ferdiansyah: juara satu neee, sayang muka, sayang perut, semua disayang soalnya jomblo, rajin garis keras, peduli banget sama nilai, tukang makan, pinterrrr, olimp mtk kemarin, stress kalau nilai hancur, stress tugas gak siap, kalau sekelompok sama dia top lah! Temen nebeng pulang<3
16. M. Hafiz: pinterrnya pinter keleesss, rajiin, baikkk, sabarnya tebel banget kalau aku minta ajarin, kadang buat palak, skrg udah otw bikin kesel, otaknya encer kali, nyebelin, hobi ngejek, sebangku agus, haha.
17. M. Akbar: lentik, manis, mirip afgan?nggak deh, tukang gombal, moduser, akbar baik, imut imut, taken, ntah udah berapa bulan, pemalas tapi tugas gak mau gak ngumpul, sebangku sama obie.
18. Nabella oktavianda: cewek paling raksasa setelah atun, suaranyaaa-_- sekarang udah hobi marah dan bikin palak, gak ngertilah sama nabel, tapi nabel baik, pernah nebeng ke sungai siak buat tugas plh, hihi.
19. Nahda rani: bakatnya sih pengacara, cita cinta dokter:) ngomong sekata dijawabnya separagraf, jahat, mukanya bikin palak, aktif passus, sepaket sama nindi, hobi marah marah tapi marah kalau aku marah marah, duduk dibelakang dia gak tersiksa kok, enggak:)
20. Nindi ayu: buklu passus, sexy men, cheers nii, objek dibully anak cowok, klop kali sama robby, apa apa robby, sering menyelipkan curhatan di setiap kalimat yg diomongkannya, nama lainnya sih curcol, sepaket berdua rinda, pipinya merah merah, katanya sih blash on nya dari dalam:)
21. Nindy novianty: anak basket ney, baikk, sabar kali kali kalii, pacarnya senior, rajin, putih, cantik, kurus pengen kayak nindy:( bertanggungjawab, tapi kalau udah palak, dahlah jangan coba coba:)
22. Rendy yuda: aneh, misterius, kadang sih percaya gak percaya sama dia, klop kali sama ryan, selalu ngebelain ryan, sayang kali sama ryan, rumahnya nggak jauh kok enggak, lumayan bisalah diajak bekerja sama dalam pagelaran buat bantu bantu.
23. Rifka malinda: ika kecik, minion, takenn, k so sweet kali sama pacarnya, senyumnya lebar, jarinya panjang, duo kecik sama veren, manissss, hobi marah juga, cepet sensi, tapi ramah begete. Kemarin dia baru pulang umroh, k imutlah pokoknya!
24. Robby fenandri: ada trisukma dinamanya tapi dia gak suka karna kayak nama cewek, badannya kecil dan menipu, kurus, hobby kali nyiksa nindi, ntah sayang dia ntah gak, otaknya siplah:) bele, kadang tingkahnya yg nggak nggak aja, baiklah, penakut akut!! Obie ucul juga, sering membongak.
25. Rosa mulni: hoho, my chairmate! Sabarnya teballlll, tebaaaal kaliii, baiik, pinterrr, tapi skrg udah agak hobi sensi, terkontaminasi aku kali ya?:( rosa always listening always understanding, sabar kali berdua rendy kalau aku udah kelahi sama ryan, rajin bangettt, aktif passus. Sering gibah sama dia sekarang, wkwk.
26. Ryan sury: ketua, buruk, jahat, cerewet, raksasa, tukang ngina, tukang buat palak, teman kelahi all the time, nyebeliiiinnn, gak ada yg bener dimata dia, semua salah, kalau ada maunya baru baik baik, itupun dalam sekejap langsung buat palak, sering minta kirimin pr, pinterlah yaa, uh sering nanya wkwk, vollynya keren men, sombong, sombong, sombong, hobi sombong, sok cool padahal buruk.
27. Sherly perel: itam, legam, besi berani:) gak dehh, sherly best deeeh, baik meen, mukanya buat palak, giginya ucul, makan all the time, pacarnya imam ckck, nyebelin, gak suka dimarah tapi kelakuannya bikin org marah:) dia sabar tapi kadang marah marah juga:)
28. Shindi yuliza: bohay, sexy and pinter banget caper guru, hehe, dia sekre kelas.
29. Titan herliana: kecil, rambut panjang bgt, juru soal, juru kunci, baiklah, pinter, lumayan rajin, anak bagak, selalu berani dengan semua yg dilakukannya gak peduli resiko:)
30. Vanesha miranda: i cant describing myself anyway. Pokoknya dikelas itu ya gitu, kayak kebanyakan makhluk disana pokoknya.
31. Veren monica: mancung, manissss, pipinya tembem, rambut badai keles, kecikk, ndutz, bibirnya tipis keles, cheers ne, so sweet kali sama pacarnya, jarang ada pandainya dia ni.
32. Widya esterina: teman seperjuangan kalauu mau uh, kalau ada tugas ask widya! Baikk, badannya gede, sabar, pinteerrr, olimp mtk juga, duduknya so far from me, tapi kalau ujian deket sama dia, hehe.
33. Zuffiani zetha: ucul, sipit, ngomongnya so fast, gaya ngomongnya lucu, panggilannya 'y' putih keles, sering flu sama kayak aku, baik, ramah, baru jomblo, sering sensi juga, rumah paling dekat sama sekolah tapi hobi telat:)
34. Ridho wira: anak baru dari sma2, pinter volly, kayaknya pinter sih, belum kenal banget, baik deh, mukanya agak sengak gitu, eh rupanya lumayan seru jugalah dia.
Finally!! Keriting jari dedek ngetiknya:( haft! Pokoknya sayang banget sama mereka! Kalau ibaratnya sekolah itu rumah kedua, nah mereka itulah keluarga kedua! Emang seru seru banget! Bakalan banyak event yang bakal kami isi bareng2, kayak ntar lagi bakalan ada ED, pagelaran, siroh, upacara. Huhu, semoga klop terus yaa my lovely class!!!
Minggu, 16 Februari 2014
one does not simply
although it's hurt, i will still through it all. yeah i know it isn't easy, and it's so hard and too hurt to do. but if God give me this all to through, i will through it with the best i can.
once, there is a part of bestfriend. Her name is sandra, and his name is willy. they're just met at their new school. they haven't known each other. but time bring them to the present, to the life that their live right now.
sandra has a bad attitude bad not worse. she always proud of her loudest laugh and don't care what her friends said. during that all can makes her happy, she'll do that and close her ears of what peoples said. but all that prescription she broke up with her bravest act and her speaking talent. she's very good on her debate and she always like to speak over the words. at least she is a kind and brave girl, but a little bad attitude that makes her still single until this time.
willy is the top boy on their class, he is the coolest one, but that in once. now, he is the freakiest boy, or the other desc like sandra on boy version. he is so freak, but multitalent. maybe he is not good in english, but his sport is sooo amazing. he and sandra like completed each other, and they are cute. everyday they are always fighting. no day without fighting.
sandra and willy like tom and jerry. they're so cute but freak and sometimes makes their friends feel annoying with their "fight" everyday.
day by day have passed. someday, sandra feel like she has a disgusting mind on her head. she see herself changing. she feel like fighting with willy isn't get bored although they do that everyday and everytime and she smile everytime she remind all moments that she has been through with willy. .
oneday, she told it to her friends. about her disgusting feeling. she wont to fall for him. wth will happen if she fall for him. but it's the reality, yes she is love willy and in love with him. but she don't know, is willy fall with her too? is willy love her too? sandra knows the answer, it's no!
day by day passed like usual, always fighting don't care how little mistakes each other have done, they will always make it into big problem. like a married couple that want to break up. they're always do that. and sandra don't know why, she always hope that their fighting wont to the end, because that the only way to still close with willy.
so far, sandra love willy more and more each day. now, she got jealous when willy flirting with other girls. she don't know why. but she know she notable to do that, because she is not willy's girlfriend she just willy's girl bestfriend. that phrase are killing her everytime she saw willy flirting with other girls.
she told bout her feeling to her friend. and her friend ask her to change, as soon as possible. because get jealous with someone who doesn't even yours is the worst feeling ever. you feel pain because him, but you shouldn't yo feel that. okay, sandra try her best to change. she try it so hard. but everything feel so worst everyday. willy doesn't like the same. he get closer with usual girl he has flirt with. they're closer, closer and sooooooo closeeeeeeeee everyday. that makes sandra down. it broke down her effort not to get jealous, but why willy act like he is in love with that girl. that disgusting sandra. and it makes sandra as a sensitive girl. she always get mad, but she take it seriously when willy call her, she feel like willy want that girl and love that girl.
sandra get more far with willy everyday. and it's hurt. really hurt. she don't know what she will say to willy because everything are so worse and she can't explain why. she save it by herself because she know, no one can understand what she has been through.
"it's hurt to see some one who very close with you in once, but get so far right now and you can't move from all moments that you've been through together. and you always miss it. and you always get jealous when he with other girls but you don't have to do that because he's not even yours"
and now, sandra still try her best. not just to make her jealousy go away, but also to make herself ready and really sure to let go of someone who so close with her in once and move from all that sweet moments and really sure to see willy happy with other girl that really mean to him..
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